you are…I am…

like unspoken words communicated in gestures and glances romantically innocent and refrained promising tomorrows without pretense and happiness without fear yeah, like wild cherry flavored now-n-laters and vanilla ice cream cones with rainbow covered sprinkles and childhood laughter after a heartfelt tickling spree and remembrances of your favorite things and falling in love and feeling free and realizing it’s not make believe! you are all of these things you are a dream i dreamed a wish i wished a love i only prayed would exist and now love exists in all of the spaces and all of the places we occupy and there’s a simplicity to us that completes me and so… like the fairytale that ends with happily ever after with you loving me and me loving you i am so very happy… like a kid learning about happiness experiencing bliss and unconditional love -- and all kinds of new experiences… with my eyes wide open… and my heart overflowing with joy – no longer the sad and lonely little boy that dreamed a dream and wished a wish… but a man in love with the man of his dreams and the object of his wishes – complete – and in love – and happy –

I Love You

I L O V E Y O U In between the white spaces that fill the pages of this feeble attempt at poetry And the silent moments between the breaths taken to form words And beneath the surface of laughter And at the corner of a smile Is the simplest truth – I love you Below the realms of pain And above the thoughts of fear Inside the empty moments of thinking about nothing And at the core of my soul Is the simplest truth – I will always love you Hidden in the three little words And tethered to an overwhelming feeling That is lost to any sense of understanding Is the simplest truth – I will never be able to express how much I love you… But deep in the depths of my soul Planted firmly in my beating heart Is something so rare … so honest … so sincere And so, so simple – Iloveyou I love you I l o v e y o u I Love You!

the fire slowly died

and the fire slowly died
leaving in its wake a residue of life less confined
and energy transformed into chemistry
that radiated love
chemically altering the state of hate that permeated the death of us
and new life emerged
with sirens crying
and blue birds flying
like a paradox caged outside of a box
so that a smile reconciled the absence of you
and a touch ignited a sparkle of hope
beyond dreams
and wishes
into a manifested beginning of now
changing simple hello's
into unlimited possiblities
and subdued glances
into complex examinations
the fire slowly died
so that the forest could be seen beyond the burning trees
and tomorrow
tomorrow could be welcomed by your release.

Dearheart

Dearheart, fear not, for I see you.
I see you.
I see you … and all of your complex choices
That suggest loss
And absence
And fear
and an ignorance of the bliss that beckons you to be more than just a dream
And I hear you
I hear you.
I hear the multitude of voices that become your shield
Guarding you
Hiding you
Disguising you
from a reflection of the man you have become
and all of the trials you have overcome.
Yes, Dearheart, I understand you.
I understand you.
And why the truth continues to elude you.
But, Dearheart, fear not, for I was you.
I was you.
I was the man that chased a dream believing I was unable to be something more than a broken spirit…
A broken promise
Believing I was just broken.
But, Dearheart, fear not, for things will change.
Things will change.
And you will find the strength
to see yourself …
To see yourself as I see you; and to know yourself, as I know you, and to love yourself, as I love you.
To love yourself…as I love you.
Dearheart, fear not, for I see you.
I see you.
And one day, one day soon, so will you!

Words...seem to fail

In the end words failed
And emotions seemed to overwhelm the prevailing sense of peace…
Tides of tears ebbed and flowed
And the stillness of soul became aflutter with angst
The pain was not yet realized
But the loss was deep
The truth offered a glaring witness
To the shallow waters that drowned happiness
Bliss retreated
And changes ensued
Where love once curled on the corner of a smile
A glaring eye took on its own life
And things once overlooked--Perfect imperfections
Became magnified defects
And everything--Ev-er-y-thing
Became suspect
Yes, in the end, words seem to fail,
But words gave rise to the changing tide
Words
Became personified eyes
Allowing the glimpses of truth to move beyond words like “I love you…”
In the end words seem to fail
Yes, words seem to fail…fail to mask the lie of us…
In the end…

Metamorphosis

And the sun rose…giving way to rays of new beginnings
Like butterflies shedding their cocoon…
Flapping their wings for the first time…
Flight sustained
Everything changed
Like bliss
With simple moments
Gentle moments
And a gentleman’s patience
Waiting for the ready…
Without pressure
Or expectation
Confidence in knowing
That love continues growing
Even in ignorance

Yes, like bliss
Enveloping darkness
Transforming the distance between me and my heart
Painting days with yellow hugs
And purple kisses
So that moments become magic
And memories become art

This is what I wanted –
That juicy purple love…
Spelled with bubble letters…
Art…
Like graffiti…
Completely free…easy…
Reminding me of childhood laughter
And cake batter…
And school boy crushes
And that pitter patter and butterfly flutter
That sends goose bumps up and down your arms…
This…this is what really matters…
and so love…love sits on the tip of my lips
like cherry chap stick
smooth
easy
love

And so the words fall like rain
With hope fumbling across the page
Trying to stage the perfect rendition
Of the flutters that continue to mark the moments of now
Like candy coated raindrops
Sprinkling the sweetness of your embrace
This taste
Must be love
Constantly reminding me of wishes
Long hoped for
And just now realized
Like bliss
Sneaking up on you
And slowly stretching across your lips
To mark the simplest truth
Love…
Bliss…
And a beautiful metamorphosis.

I Deserve More

I will not love
As if I were stone
In order to avoid the hurt that complements love
I will not shield my soul
From the trappings of intimacy
So that I can protect myself from the trials of loss
The cost can be paid in wages of tears
And experiences marred with anguish and fear
But I will not love
As If I were stone
I will not harden my heart
To create stops and starts
Those never move beyond hellos

I deserve more

I will not hold on to anger
To stay steady and calm

No,
I will embrace the darkness
The abyss of emotion that leaves me tethered to a longing for love

I will be love
Forgiving in the endings
Honest in the beginnings
And communicative throughout
So that I can witness the birth of happiness
Plant the seeds of tranquility
And nurture them with the soil of my soul

I will be bold
In my loving
And hold tight to the promise that I can be complete
All by myself
But I choose to be the whole half of a part of an us
So…
I will be love
Loved
Loving
In the minutes and moments until we exist.

I will be
All that I am
Until we exist.