everybody's watching

Everybody’s watching…everybody’s waiting
With baited breath and doe eyed wonder
longing and hungry
For washed up dreams and colored bed spreads stained with cum
Preparing to gawk at the awkward confusion of life unraveling…
Can you feel it?
Tell me, can you feel it?
The piercing stares – the knowing glances…the ridiculous assumptions about choices and chances

Everybody’s watching…everybody’s waiting
For the other shoe to drop … for the end of the series of unfortunate events
called life
And there you go…under the microscope…
packing up your bags…heading for the door
Because loving yourself more than anyone else – believing in yourself more than anyone else
And sticking with it until the end –
That’s just foreign…
Just foreign…

And as everyone watches…as everyone waits
You believe your best option is to run…to flee from the scrutiny
Instead of taking the risk – going with the experience
And learning…growing…
so you run … to the next town…the next challenge – the same challenge
over and over and over again
because running doesn’t equate to learning…
and starting again doesn’t equate to growing…
and so, the “never agains” continue to echo
as faces change…but
everybody continues watching…and waiting…
for you to find the “never again”
and until then…
they watch…and wait…
with baited breath…and doe eyed wonder
until you learn to sit still – love yourself better than this…and just let go.