...words

Words...

Un-uttered...filling white spaces on pages riddled with anger and loss...


Empty
like lyrics not yet sung...
keys not yet stroked...
notes not yet written...

Words...
building bridges - mending the frayed edges burned by reckless youth...

once therapy
now void
unwilling to yield a healing beyond the block of unanswered questions ...
questions unformed...

Words...
stifled
heavy with doubt

disabling emotional release - dis-ease
crippling speech -
stuck...
blocked...
echoing a deafening silence -

Words...
filled with possibility...
powerful...
colorful...
vivid...

words...fail today
and everything fades -

Words...
become a mystery
and the treachery leaves a wake of empty spaces

yet words...
as empty and colorless and limited and crippling as they are
offer an explanation for the lack...

the lack of
writing...
communication...
connection...

reflection...

The lunacy of this place is familiar
reminiscent of silenced years of unspoken abuse...

but words...empty as they are...
still resolve to tell the story
the story of me
that remains unwritten...unspoken...

yes,
beautiful...empty...colorless words...

leave me...

here...

writing a different ending -

words...

haunt me...

words...

break me...

so that I become vulnerable

and aware

and lost

and found

and afraid

of what I will learn...

words...